Homeless Men Rush to Help Bombing Victims

So, after the cowardly bombing in Manchester killed many and wounded, even more, the stories of heroes begin to emerge.  Emergency services of all sorts were brave no doubt as they always are.  The other day in Manchester two homeless men heard the blast as they were sleeping on the cement near the bomb site.  Stephen Jones and his fellow homeless friend ran toward the bomb site and began to help all of the people that they could.  They pulled nails out of the skin of child victims and help clean off the blood that had gotten on so many people.  A good Samaritan returned the bravery by renting an apartment for six months for the homeless heroes.  Remember the next time you see a street person that they are people just like us who have the capacity to be passionate, brave and giving. Sometimes, we just need a reminder that the poor are part of our communities and regardless of why they are homeless and poor they deserve our friendship, mercy, compassion and help if we have anything to give.  Mercy always trumps judgment.

Scientology and Opiates (LOL)

In my last post-Do Police Even Know What an Opiate is I pointed out the glaring errors in many media reports that a man in Tennessee was selling Kratom and that Kratom is a synthetic opiate.  I came across this article today that blames the errors on erroneous advice from the Church of Scientology.  Maybe on Xenu Kratom is a synthetic opiate but not in the actual real world. Once again the kooks in Scientology have passed off so-called “facts” that are actually dung.  Read for yourself here.

To sum it up Kratom is not synthetic nor is it an opiate. Is Kratom addictive? No more than a cup of coffee, according to one of the U.S.’s leading specialists on addiction, Dr. Jack Henningfield, a professor at Johns Hopkins University. Kratom is not only an all-natural herbal substance that has been used in folk medicine for centuries, but it is also the subject of dozens of clinical trials and studies that are continuing to show multiple benefits for the versatile jungle-based botanical.

BOOM!

Do Police Even Know What An Opiate Is?

26 year Christopher Miller is in big trouble.  This Tennesse resident was arrested for selling five pounds of Kratom.  If you don’t know what Kratom is follow the link.  In a nutshell, Kratom is a herb that is native to southeast Asia.  It has been used for hundreds if not thousands of years to alleviate pain and provide a mild stimulative effect like coffee.  Kratom is a related to coffee, as a matter of fact. There has been an effort by the DEA to move Kratom to the same class of drugs as Heroin and LSD.  Recently, the DEA received so many complaints from physicians and citizens it stopped (for now) trying to schedule this plant.  There are a few states where Kratom is illegal in and one of those is Tennessee.  I use Kratom for pain.  It is very effective for chronic pain and has very few and limited side effects.

Sometimes, I am not even sure that the police understand what substances are and which ones are illegal or what they do.  In a news release detailing Mr. Millers’ arrest… well, here it is for you to read verbatim: “The synthetic opiate, which is illegal in Tennessee, can cause edginess, vomiting, sweating, constipation, delusions, respiratory depression, psychotic episodes, hallucinations, and paranoia.”

My point is that the police and the media constantly use false information to stigmatize substances that they have decided you shouldn’t put in your body.  For the record, Kratom is not an opiate or a synthetic substance.  Big pharma is at this very moment working on using Kratom to produce a drug that would be a synthetic version of the alkaloid found in Kratom (Mitragyna speciosa.)

In addition to being ineffective and a huge waste of billions of dollars the “war on drugs” is often times propaganda used by politicians to scare people away from natural safe substances in order to allow the drug companies to be the sole manufacturer of these plants….yep it is about money plain and simple.  This is especially true in the cases of cannabis and Kratom.

If you suffer from chronic pain and do not want to use opiates I suggest you look into Kratom.

In contrast to the Tennesse law enforcements description of Kratom, the information in this post is accurate.

GET YOUR BOOT OFF OF MY NECK!!!!

PTSD is Contagious

It took me years to realize how much having PTSD for 25 years affected the people around me.  Often times the people that I care about the most.  If you are suffering from PTSD I assure you in addition to the harm that this sickness causes you that it is hurting your friends and family.  Anyone who is in close proximity to you will be affected by your PTSD.  Sorry, I don’t want to be a downer but I do want to encourage you to seek treatment so you can get better, live in peace and begin the inventory of personal relationships that may need healing.  This is very difficult and often you may not see the damage your sickness has caused.  The difficulty in seeing the damage caused by your sickness is another reason to seek the guidance of a therapist who is trained AND experienced in treating trauma victims.

Did you know PTSD is contagious?  It is true.  You cannot catch PTSD from someone sneezing or blowing their nose and not washing their hands.  However, those nearest to you can “catch” PTSD from you due to your behavior.  Will, they catch a serious case of PTSD?  Maybe.  Maybe not.  It is almost assured that they will be damaged emotionally.  As you begin to get better and receive healing from PTSD it becomes a little easier to see the damage you have caused to others.

I don’t want to hit you over the head with this fact but simply to cause all those with PTSD to understand that many other people are affected by how PTSD causes you to live your life.  This can be a friend or group of friends that after inviting you to many functions without you showing up simply stop inviting you or having any hope that you will ever show up.  I understand that this is because you are sick with PTSD and the thought of going out into an uncontrolled environment scares the shit out of you.  The problem is, however, those people probably do not understand that this is the reason why.  Almost every relationship you have will bear some of the damage that PTSD causes.  Your coworkers, friends, family members, etc.

My PTSD has damaged my relationship with my children.  During my EMDR treatment, I went to both of my kids and explained why I had been such an asshole so many times. They deserved an explanation for my distant and seemingly uncaring attitude.  Repairing these relationships takes time and intense effort on your part.  My PTSD affected my beautiful wife in a huge way.  Imagine being married to a hyper-vigilant, angry, terrified and distracted person for years and years.  It takes its toll on all of your relationshups.

Here is the good news.  Those relationships can be restored most of the time.  Sadly, not all of the time.  Our responsibility to those we have harmed is, to be honest, and contrite.  We must work consciously and diligently to bring peace and healing to these relationships.  While it is true that some relationships are permanently damaged by this disorder (more accurately an injury to the brain) not all are irreparably harmed.  In fact, I believe that most of those relationships can be repaired and even become stronger. Keep your head up.  Remember you are a survivor.  Face the relationships that need to be repaired with humility, honesty and the firm resolve to own your stuff and work as hard as you can to allow them to heal.  After years of PTSD induced behavior, it may take a while for these relationships and these people to forgive you.  Just as you probably weren’t aware of the damage you were causing the people who were affected may not be fully aware of the scope of the damage that has been done to them.

Let’s move forward and be at peace with everyone if it is at all possible.  Once again remember you are a survivor and after the darkness, the sun does shine…every day.

What PTSD Taught Me About Giving Back

“Even in times of trauma, we try to maintain a sense of normality until we no longer can. That, my friends, is called surviving. Not healing. We never become whole again … we are survivors. If you are here today… you are a survivor. But those of us who have made it thru hell and are still standing? We bear a different name: warriors.”
― Lori Goodwin

It has been 1 year and 143 days since my last PTSD “episode.”  I feel great.  Sure, I still have to consciously “fight the lie” as I call it.  It is my way of saying that when a lie enters my head such as “I will always be fucked up in the head.  I am a loser and will never get better!”  that I use self-talk and refute the lie.  It sounds something like this “You will not always be fucked up.  Look at the progress you have made!”   I scoffed at this method for years.  However, between EMDR and self-talk amongst tons of support from friends and my awesome family, I would say I am 99% better.  I still have a lower tolerance for stress but I have learned to hang in there, breathe deeply and not to lash out at others in a crazy self-destructive way.  So, it is all good and my life is as normal as it has ever been…LOL.

Lori Goodwin’s quote rings true to me.  For years all I did was survive.  Survival is all you can do at many times on the road to healing.  Sometimes just surviving is a Herculean challenge.  However, I know consider myself not just a survivor but a warrior.  Warriors fight for people or causes.  My desire is to fight for those of us who are still just surviving. That is a hard desire to explain.  But, I want to let people know that they can conquer the damage, fear, and destruction that trauma and the resulting PTSD have caused.

I want people to know that they can get better.  Sometimes, people only get a little better.  Often times they experience an amazing degree of healing.  Before healing starts people first need to trust.  Trust is very difficult for folks with PTSD for obvious reasons. However, it is possible to trust again.  Maybe all you can do is trust someone or something or yourself 1% of the time.  That is OK, it is a start.  If you are suffering or know someone is trapped in the trauma prison know that you can get better.  The reason PTSD is referred to as a battle or a war is because it is hard as hell to break out of it and win your healing.  Also, we cannot heal ourselves.  We were hurt by people and healing will only come with proximity to and interaction with people.

Hang in there!  You are a survivor of the pain and horror that has claimed many of our fellow warriors.  FIGHT THE LIE! DON’T GIVE UP! CHOOSE TO TRUST SOMEONE.  There is hope and healing for you.

What Is Daniel’s Law in Ohio?

Today those of you in live in Ohio may have heard the news about a bill proposed in the Ohio legislature called “Daniel’s Law.”  All the information available at this point is sparse.  At this time the only folks reporting on it are local news outlets and their coverage is bare bones.  Daniel’s law aims to help curb the horrible opiate epidemic in Ohio by SEVERLY limiting how much narcotic pain medicine a physician can legally prescribe.  As soon as I have more details I will write about them.